My Epiphany...

So here it is... 12:18 am 2/8/2011 and I am wide awake, again. This has been a common theme the past week, ever since I went to the doctors and he put me on prednisone. If you don't know a few weeks ago I was in a car accident (nothing too horrible, just a banged up car and apparently something wrong with my arm/shoulder/neck). Well this medicine makes me want to eat when I'm not hungry, my brain thinks I need to be eating, but my belly is completely full! Well let me back track a little, a week before the accident I joined the gym and I went to the gym diligently for that week and then haven't gone back since. I felt so good that week, not only physically but I felt so fantastic about myself during that week and now I am back into the patter I was in before. Eating poorly and feeling miserable about myself. When I went to the doctors they made me step onto the scale and I was SHOCKED by the number that was on the scale, and not to mention embarrassed.
My weight has always been a constant struggle and I use food as comfort and a way to escape. I don't want to admit it, but it's true. Who wouldn't rather sit down and watch TV after work and/or school eating whatever they darn well please rather than go to the gym (for an hour or two) and then go home and cook (YES cook) a meal? I can say I'd much rather not have to worry about the gym and eat whatever it is my little heart desires.
So here is what I am going to do. As hard as it might be for me as much as it will be a HUGE pain in my butt to do this every day, I am going to blog about my journey, whether it be the next few months or years, I am going to write down daily what I eat and post it on here. I am going to state my goal of how much I want to lose by August 2011 and twice a month I am going to give an update as to how much I lost. Within my daily post I will say what I ate for each meal, and if I tried a new recipe I will post that as well. So here we go.....

My goal weight loss number is: 100
My weaknesses are: sweets, soda, fruit juices, sweet, sweets, oh and did I mention sweets?!

Thanks for reading guys and gals! Your support through this will mean a lot to me, considering that this whole "diet"/life change thing I have tried how many times before and have failed at it. I need as much support as I can get.

xoxo-